The internal mechanisms of an optimisic machine

Went to GLOW at the Guvernment yesterday.

AMAZING. Honestly I haven’t had that much fun since Labour of Love in Sept 2011. And I’ve seeen a TON of dj’s this past year. Mind you they were all good but seriously Mark Oliver, Manzone & Strong and DEKO-ZE (yayaya!) kiiiiiilled it last night. and whoever the duo in Chroma was with their dubstep, hardcore ish was also good.


BUT. when you mix alesso with daft punk…you have won over my heart. HEARD so many tunes that were played at EDC.

And Deko-ze with his amazing house. ahhhh. 


GUV went all out with the decor, the dancers and the vibe was so good. Everyone was so happy and doing their thing. Now i see what all the hype was about. 


Thank you for convincing me to go boyfriend…seems you’ve become quite the raver yourself!  


Now all I need to do is see Tritonal, Porter Robinson & Mat-zo and life will be gooooooood. 

OK so. Im currently at work on 2.5 hours of sleep w/ last nights make up still on my face. what the effffffffffffffffffffffffff?

went to RIVA on college for a friends birthday meanwhile another want one of my friends was djing some wicked house music there. Unfortunately ran into someone I did not want to see and acted like a dumass.

Either way, amazing night :).

NOW all i want to do is sleep. sigh.

I believe that music is stronger than any boundaries or belief.
Armin Van Burren (via ravetube)



loveeeeee you avb. wish i was less effed out of my mind when I saw you last weekend. either way. COME  back to tdott soooon times.
 - Tritonal – Live @ Electric Daisy Carnival (New York) – 19.05.2012 [www.edmtunes.com]
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OH man, this set makes my face fucking melt. I wish I could have been at EDC.

loveloveloveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee their sets.  

Songraphy

“I wanna wake up where you are….I won’t say anything at all” : Slide - Goo Goo Dolls

I remember I used to hear those lyrics before I met you and used to wonder who these might refer to…one day in my life. Who knew that one day we would be seeing the Goo Goo Dolls play this live only less than a year into our relationship. Score: I got free tickets and one of my besties came along too.

Anyhow back to the point, I always want to wake up where you are. The past year has been so rough, with a lot of twists and turns that I haven’t had a chance to remember why  we’ve made it this far. Just think…in about 4 months we will be hitting our 3 year mark. And that’s not ALOT relative to our parents marriage or something but it’s quite the accomplishment.

We’ve grown together, we’ve “become one” and are practically inseparable..and then I think Spice Girls - two become one..and I’m like haha oh silly 7 year old me..that’s what it means. But not only physically…emotionally as well.

And then I think of how many different songs that mark certain aspects of our relationship, even silly songs we used to rock out to at the Brunny almost 3 years ago. It’s crazy. And that list keeps growing and hence I named this post “songraphy” because of the fact Song’s attribute to our biographies. A story about you, about me and about us.

And then back to the first paragraph. Considering I’m taking a break from EDM for a few days because of the HORRIBLE recovery I need to get through since I took some crazy pills at the GUV (to see Armin :D..which  was great…apart from the aftermath) …ANYHOW I decided to listen to some slower tunes. And there, I went through the shins, fleetwood mac, the cranberries, heart, Arcade fire, MGMT, Madonna, Goo Goo Dolls, Matchbox 20, Vampire Weekend, Florence and the Machine  (BTW I SHOULD ADD, I’m writing this post and I’ve literally been up for 36 hrs hahaaaaa) and all of these artists remind me of you or a specific event/time in our relationship..perhaps its lyrics to a song, the fact we both like these artists etc.

Anyhow, Slide was the first song I listened to by the Goo Goo Dolls today and as soon as it started…I couldn’t stop crying and continued to cry as I listened to more songs by this group. Perhaps its because I’m experience the weird, empty emotion-less ultimate down from the ecstasy I took last night but either way, something triggered this emotional response. And I always want to wake up where you are. I miss you. Even when we’re at my parents house and we sleep in separate rooms…when u come visit me in my room in the morning and cuddle, it makes me feel complete. I feel this song reflects quite a few things we experienced in our relationship and one day we will “get married and run away” and continue to grow together. And the time apart from you makes me cherish our relationship even more. 

 

2am on a friday night. I cant go to sleep even though I worked a double shift and have been up since 10am.

I miss my boyfriend ! (he’s in Ottawa )
My new job is pretty cool but its fuckin’ far.
Figuring out how I’m going to manage 3 jobs.
Need to buy a new laptop, cellphone and camera. GAH.
Need to buy festival tickets….for other EDM galore’s in Tdot.
Need to pay off tuition balance.
need to rent a gown for convocation.
need to buy a carpet and other household items…
need to pay rent after all that and in between. hmph. 
AHHHHhHhhHH so many expenses. FML. 


What to do. 


Either fuckin way, im super stokked about seeing Armin at Freedom at the guv in like 2 days. OMGOMGOMG. It feels like its been forevaaaa. 

I’ve been doing nothing w/ my life aside from sleeping as much as I can and WORKING and spending time with people i love. or atleast trying to spend as much time.

and like other people who are about to convocate from uoft this June…there’s so much pressure and you feel like you need to do more with your life…but really ..just fucking relax (as my fellow coworker at HH and I have discussed).  I keep thinking, I should read a book, catch up on all the academia I found interesting but had no time to indulge in..but I have an entire life for that..I’m going to do absolutely nothing (except work and spend time with bf, family and friends), so technically it’s not quite nothing..but I guess according to a recent graduate..theres always so much more that can be done…and I’ve come to convince myself that all that stuff can wait!
 

deadmau5 ft. chris james - the veldt

Oh the places you’ll go.

So I’m fairly bored at work. Super tired. and don’t really feel like reading the nytimes. SO WHAT NOW. Well I’ve been meaning to right a blog post ever since I finished my last exam at UofT approx 2 Friday’s ago. The sense of relief …such relief that I forgot about one of my shifts at worked which happened to conflict with another shift at my other job, which I didn’t know about untill I checked my voicemail after I happened to leave one of that same shift early because I was freakin’ tired from 2 all nighters and wanted to rest before PARTAY-ING.

Confusing? Yep. Just like the last 4 years have been. The best 4 years of my life thus far and yet is was a crazy ride. I don’t believe many people who will go through their entire life will have experienced what I did in the last 4 years. And to those of you who know me really well, you’ll defs know what I’m talking about. But despite all the “con’s” — it was a learning experience and I am a SUPERWOMAN (reference to Alicia Keys song haha). And I’m not being cocky. legit. I am.


Though I cannot and rather not release details about all the fucked up ness I’ve gone through which I would never take back…except for maybe the bed bugs in what was the most awesome apartment and as a consequence the 3 moves I’ve had in the last 6 months are so, two of which were during exam time.


So I finally have completed my degree and two majors and am rather proud of myself.  But thats not so much a contributor to my happiness, I mean I think it’s the perks (NOT FINANCIAL, I must add) that came with taking this path. And I’ll begin to list only a fraction of what has made my life oh-so  satisfying:

1. Acquiring amazing, honest, fun, trustworthy friends from UofT [Melissa, Vayla, Elena, Jen :) ]
2. Stregthening friendships with a couple of friends from my past, especially one in particular <3 (OLGA!)
3. Sharing my life with a significant other (Derwin) for almost 3 years and forever more.
4. Becoming independent
5. Developing a strong understanding of my comfort zone, myself, what makes me happy and what I want in life
6. Though it has been turbulent — maturing and becoming closer to my family despite the fact I don’t see them as often as I would like to.
7. Experiencing RAAAVES with EDM and my besties!
8. Revisiting my past (DISNEYWORLD) with my significant other — the best boyfriend ever who might I add surprised me with the orange platforms (see below)!
9. Enhancing my knowledge, skills and acquiring some awesome jobs i.e. working at Hart House and sooooooon Cedar Ridge Creative Centre in Scarbbbbs.
10. Establishing a wicked, uber awesome sense of style, haha. just for laughs :)



It’s been such an amazing journey and I went from being a “chicken with its head caught off”, in other words a wild, promiscous, crazy, naive, first year girl with big hopes in dreams to a well grounded (still crazy!), free spirited, confident and down to earth superwoman with “more” realistic hopes and dreams. And I’ve am so thankful for this wonderful supportive network that I have been granted that consists of my family, boyfriend and friends <3 . Thanks to everyone, for everything.


And now back to an image I posted when I finished highschool



OH!
THE PLACES YOU’LL GO!

You’ll be on your way up!
You’ll be seeing great sights!
You’ll join the high fliers
who soar to high heights
………………………….

Oh, the places you’ll go! There is fun to be done!
There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.




woohoo! Kudos to you Obama! And uh in response to this:
Log Cabin Republicans, the gay arm of the GOP, gripes ”that the president has chosen today, when LGBT Americans are mourning the passage of Amendment One, to finally speak up for marriage equality is offensive and callous.”eff you Log Cabin! As if the republicans are doing anything to restore your rights.
thedailywhat:

Follow-Up of the Day: Reactions to Obama’s Gay Marriage Announcement: The fallout from President Obama’s announcement Wednesday that he backs gay marriage:
Nationwide polling shows support for gay marriage outweighs opposition, according to genius pollster Nate Silver.
House Republicans voted to add an amendment to a $51.1 billion spending bill that prohibits the Justice Department from using taxpayer dollars in any future fight against the anti-gay rights Defense of Marriage Act. Which means the Obama administration’s hands are essentially tied as far as opposing DOMA.
Mitt Romney toed the GOP line: “My view is that marriage itself is between a man and a woman.” He said Wednesday that he still believes states should be able to decide whether to offer certain legal rights to same-sex couples.
In the first 90 minutes after news of Obama’s position surfaced, spontaneous donations to his campaign totaled $1 million.
Some argue that Obama’s announcement is BS. “He now believes that gay couples should be able to marry. He doesn’t believe they have a right to do so,” points out Aaron Cook, writing for Gawker.
Log Cabin Republicans, the gay arm of the GOP, gripes ”that the president has chosen today, when LGBT Americans are mourning the passage of Amendment One, to finally speak up for marriage equality is offensive and callous.”
Obama breaks his silence on Vice President Biden:  ”He probably got out a little bit over his skis.”
Jon Stewart throws a party on The Daily Show.
The “Jeep Party” scene from Zoolander beats out the competition for the No. 1 GIF.
Twitter — predictably — explodes.

woohoo! Kudos to you Obama! And uh in response to this:

  • Log Cabin Republicans, the gay arm of the GOP, gripes ”that the president has chosen today, when LGBT Americans are mourning the passage of Amendment One, to finally speak up for marriage equality is offensive and callous.”

    eff you Log Cabin! As if the republicans are doing anything to restore your rights.

thedailywhat:

Follow-Up of the Day: Reactions to Obama’s Gay Marriage Announcement: The fallout from President Obama’s announcement Wednesday that he backs gay marriage:

  • Nationwide polling shows support for gay marriage outweighs opposition, according to genius pollster Nate Silver.
  • House Republicans voted to add an amendment to a $51.1 billion spending bill that prohibits the Justice Department from using taxpayer dollars in any future fight against the anti-gay rights Defense of Marriage Act. Which means the Obama administration’s hands are essentially tied as far as opposing DOMA.
  • Mitt Romney toed the GOP line: “My view is that marriage itself is between a man and a woman.” He said Wednesday that he still believes states should be able to decide whether to offer certain legal rights to same-sex couples.
  • In the first 90 minutes after news of Obama’s position surfaced, spontaneous donations to his campaign totaled $1 million.
  • Some argue that Obama’s announcement is BS. “He now believes that gay couples should be able to marry. He doesn’t believe they have a right to do so,” points out Aaron Cook, writing for Gawker.
  • Log Cabin Republicans, the gay arm of the GOP, gripes ”that the president has chosen today, when LGBT Americans are mourning the passage of Amendment One, to finally speak up for marriage equality is offensive and callous.”
  • Obama breaks his silence on Vice President Biden:  ”He probably got out a little bit over his skis.”
  • Jon Stewart throws a party on The Daily Show.
  • The “Jeep Party” scene from Zoolander beats out the competition for the No. 1 GIF.
  • Twitter — predictably — explodes.
haha right wing tards. seriously what the fuck happened to these people? 

thedailywhat:

Badvertising of the Day: Right-wing, anti-science think tank the Heartland Institute has unveiled a new billboard campaign in its hometown of Chicago that compares those who believe in global warming to the Unabomber, Charles Manson, and Osama bin Laden.
From the group’s website:

What these murderers and madmen have said differs very little from what spokespersons for the United Nations, journalists for the “mainstream” media, and liberal politicians say about global warming.

It continues:

The people who still believe in man-made global warming are mostly on the radical fringe of society. This is why the most prominent advocates of global warming aren’t scientists. They are murderers, tyrants, and madmen.

Really?!
Thankfully, spot-on analysis by The Daily Beast‘s Andrew Sullivan wins the day:

In some ways, this is an almost perfect illustration of what has happened to the “right.” A refusal to acknowledge scientific reality; and a brutalist style of public propaganda that focuses entirely on guilt by the most extreme association.

[thinkprogress]

haha right wing tards. seriously what the fuck happened to these people? 

thedailywhat:

Badvertising of the Day: Right-wing, anti-science think tank the Heartland Institute has unveiled a new billboard campaign in its hometown of Chicago that compares those who believe in global warming to the Unabomber, Charles Manson, and Osama bin Laden.

From the group’s website:

What these murderers and madmen have said differs very little from what spokespersons for the United Nations, journalists for the “mainstream” media, and liberal politicians say about global warming.

It continues:

The people who still believe in man-made global warming are mostly on the radical fringe of society. This is why the most prominent advocates of global warming aren’t scientists. They are murderers, tyrants, and madmen.

Really?!

Thankfully, spot-on analysis by The Daily Beast‘s Andrew Sullivan wins the day:

In some ways, this is an almost perfect illustration of what has happened to the “right.” A refusal to acknowledge scientific reality; and a brutalist style of public propaganda that focuses entirely on guilt by the most extreme association.

[thinkprogress]

dude. in about 3 days I will be done my undergrad at the effing university of toronto. YES YES YES. hence i should get back to studying.

I want this coat! NOW. and those shoes. thanks.

Also screw you little burgundy for sending me a 20% off coupon after I make a major splurge!

photos courtesy of http://www.zara.com/ .

nothing makes me happier then being a rave and listening to wicked trance & hau5 music.

just sayin.

me and my bestest on new years eve. love you times infinity.  &lt;3

me and my bestest on new years eve.

love you times infinity.  <3

 - Tritonal Live @ A State of Trance 550 (Den Bosch, NL) 31-03-2012 [www.edmtunes.com]
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um. this pretty much defines my life. happiness! a state of trance that literally takes you into another dimension w/ uplifting beats.